What a nightmare. I was face to face with my mortal enemy, and I couldn't do a thing about it.
I could feel my blood boiling, my heart racing, and my adrenaline pumping. I tried to tell myself to stay calm, but I was shaking with anger.
I was finding myself in this situation more and more often since his family had moved in with my girlfriend's family. Talk about a universal joke on everyone involved.
My girlfriend at the time had more reason to hate him than I did, I have no idea how she dealt with it.
I always hated that I felt all this anger towards him, but he felt nothing.
No matter how much I held his image in my mind, wishing all manner of evil towards him, he was unaffected.
"Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured." -Mark Twain
That is how anger works.
You are the only one who is affected by your anger. No matter how justified it is, you have to deal with consequences of your negative thoughts.
Your frame of mind will decay and you will torment yourself the longer you continue this destructive thinking.
This is the same for all negative thinking or emotions.
If you are envious of someone, you feel the negativity and their lives are unchanged.
Apply this thinking to any pessimistic emotions you have and you will see this is always the result.
You can't avoid everyone who will drag you down or rile you up.
But no matter how much they get to you, I want you to stop thinking about them and stop talking about them.
Not because they deserve to get off scot free, this isn't for their benefit, but because you deserve to be happy.
Imagine your mind is your bed room.
Your thoughts are the posters and knickknacks you decorate it with.
Would you ever cover your room in pictures of people you hate? Would you ever allow any object into your room that upsets you?
So why are you letting so much of this garbage into your mind? After all, you are in your mind every moment of every day.
I am firm believer that negativity can only breed more negativity. If you can't forgive and forget, pick one.
Keep your mind clean for your own benefit.
Decorate it with everything that invigorates and uplifts you.
The world outside can drag you down at every turn, don't drag yourself down on the inside as well.
I wrote this a couple of days ago and something weird happened last night. I saw my old "Mortal Enemy" again.
I was going to an event to support a friend who is a DJ and as I walked in I recognized the security guard. It was him.
You can call it a coincidence, but whatever it was, it was weird. I saw in his eyes that he wanted peace, and so did I.
After all the time and energy I wasted, after all the negativity I allowed into my life, it meant nothing.
Peace in your mind creates peace in your life. And you deserve a peaceful life.